It's now 6:30 Monday evening , the sun has set and the sky is RED .. a spectacular red purple glow. Days are getting noticably shorter.

Again and again I am cheered up by GRATITUDE and APPRECIATION for what I have and what comes my way. I am choosing to focus on all the good things in my life rather than what is missing. I am consciously choosing to LOVE " what is " which is both incredibly uplifting and inspiring.

I mentioned to H. that I wanted a manager - an agent to get me work and clients etc .....and he reminded me of my Angel Agency.

I closed my eyes went within and saw them- a whole bunch of them - their amazing , brilliant energies bright and silvery golden in a sort of triangle shape. Their forms vaguely distinguishable as separate entities , yet part of a whole. They seemed happy . There was much activity and a lot of running around as they sprang into action. There was one rapidly clicking away on the computer,another receiving incoming faxes and yet another delivering messages. It was an amazing scene- like the rush on the trading floor of a busy stock exchange just before closing time. Bless my Angel Agency who have sprung into action for me. I intend to mobilise these energies further because apathy and lethargy are so very dibiltating . All in all an excellenty session with H. today both healing and encouraging.

Which is more than I can say for the voluntary agencies. I'm really pissed off with them, I've offered my services free of charge and none of them seem to dare to take me on :-(

The women's shelter one can only take on therapists that are registered within the system , which excludes us, Gestalt therapists and many other kinds of qualified therapists. Rules and regulations. This is Sweden for you , boringly stuffy and beaurocratic. Initiative is not rewarded here. Everything has to be " approved " by the national board of health and welfare and they are a stuffy grey bunch of sorry individuals , for the most part.

When J , offered her services for free for a month at the hospital ( body harmony ) and was greatly appreciated by parents and cancer patients ,most of them children. The chief doctor however and some of the staff offered nothing but contempt and criticism for her work. I'm sure they felt threatened by her and her beautiful healing soothing methods outside the realms of science . She was treated like a " witch" . Alas , as in days gone by , ignorance and fear .