[whump]
BRIAN:
Aah.
PILATE:
Well, Bwian, you've given us a good wun for our money.
BRIAN:
A what?
[slap]
Aaagh.
PILATE:
This time, I guawantee you will not escape. Guard, do we have any cwucifixions today?

GUARD #1:
A hundred and thirty-nine, sir. Special celebration. Passover, sir.
PILATE:
Wight. Now we have a hundwed and forty. Nice wound number, eh, Biggus?

BIGGUS DICKUS:
Hm hm hm hm hm.
CENTURION:
Hail Caesar!
PILATE:
Hail.
CENTURION:
The crowd outside is getting a bit restless, sir. Permission to disperse them, please.
PILATE:
Disperse them? But I haven't addwessed them yet.
CENTURION:
Ah, no. I know sir, but--
PILATE:
My addwess is one of the high points of the Passover. My fwiend, Biggus Dickus, has come all the way fwom Wome just to hear it.
CENTURION:
Hail Caesar.
BIGGUS:
Hail Thaethar!
CENTURION:
You're not-- ah, you're not, uh, thinking o-- of giving it a miss this year, then, sir?
PILATE:
Give it a miss?
CENTURION:
Well, it's just that they're in a rather funny mood today, sir.
PILATE:
Weally, Centuwion? I'm surpwised to hear a man like you wattled by a wabble of wowdy webels.
CENTURION:
A... bit thundery, sir.
PILATE:
Take him away.
BRIAN:
I'm a Roman! I-- I can prove it, honestly!
PILATE:
And cwucify him well! Biggus.

CENTURION:
Ah, I-- I really wouldn't, sir.
PILATE:
Out of the way, Centuwion.
BIGGUS:
Let me come with you, Pontiuth. I may be of thome athithtanth if there ith a thudden crithith. "

___________________________________________________________

from THE LIFE OF BRIAN

LMAO ....Oh and I laffed .. albeit in a CARING way :-)
xxxx's kisses all round.

Chief Joseph http://www.greatwesternpublishing.org/weeklymessages.html

Many people who’ve come to us over the years find themselves frustrated with the challenges they have in their lives. Often, the same challenges and issues keep cropping up again and again. A common one, for example, is going from one unworkable painful relationship to another just like it.

As John said, many folks are convinced they’re stuck in an unhappy mudhole of a life because of something or someone in their past. And yet, friends, it’s never your past that is creating your present. It is you that is creating your present, every moment, every experience.

The past certainly is a part of who you are now. Because of your past, you are where and who you are now. And your choices today will create your experiences tomorrow.

Having said that, however, you must remember you are the creator of your reality, of all your experiences, whether you consider them good or bad. If you are seeing someone or something in your past as the cause of whatever you’re experiencing now, you’re giving your power away. You are making yourself a victim. And that serves no one well.

It’s not really the past that’s controlling, or even influencing, you now. It’s your attention to the past in this present moment. Nothing comes into your awareness or your experience by accident. It’s all there because you drew it to yourself with your thoughts, with the vibration you put out there.

It sometimes can seem hard to let go of the past. And yet that’s the only way to healing yourself in the present moment.

This has little to do with forgiving. It’s fine to forgive. But as long as you just forgive, you’re still lingering in your past pain. In forgiving someone, you’re still focusing on the hurt they supposedly created in your life. And that gets you nowhere. You need to take one further step -- and that is to forget.

When you make the choice to heal yourself, and to own your considerable power, you will never again be stuck.

Barry Neil Kaufman said in his book, Outsmarting Your Karma and Other Preordained Conditions:

"Psychoanalysis is skin-diving into a bathtub of old bones . . . ."

There are half a dozen trees down by the lake that appear to be covered or wrapped in a fine white ghostly shroud.

Looking closer , I see spider webs, The whole tree is covered in white spider webs. Weird . One sick tree, poor thing.

I look at the surrounding trees and six of them look exactly the same. Dead. No green leaves or shoots. Sad. I hope this does not spread to the other trees. Creepy thought .

Today I received an email from a close friend of mine in which she spewed out her anger and judged me mercilessly.

I 've never experienced anger like that directed at me before.

Today I felt the full impact of her wrath and my whole body trembled as I read her words .

At the same time , I also felt some delight that she was expressing what she felt.

It's quite weird.

I have spent time this morning going through every sentence asking myself if there is any truth in what she says and what parts of it I can own.

" I am a student of life and I love it ! "

The inside of my home is a MESS.. chaos !!!

Is this a reflection of my inner world ?
I've been introspective for a while now and a great deal of insights and awarenesses have appeared as well as gifts , physical and non- physical. Gifts have been gratefullly accepted, unwrapped, enjoyed and are still out there . I feel they all need homes , but where to put them ? That is the question

I am trying to GATHER all the bits of myself ; the dozens of different notebooks and journals, web pages, accounts, clothes, books, CD's. I am ALL OVER THE PLACE . Scattered and my inner organiser is protesting in dismay:

" What the heck is going on ??? What are we going to do about this mess. We can't function properly until we have ORDER ! ORDER IN THE HOUSE ! ORDER !
Too much stuff coming in. What are we going to with it all ? STOP ... no more things coming in until we get some order in here ! "

TOLERANCE and ACCEPTANCE say:
" We like this spreading.. this omnipotence.This is creative, A good since. Abundance made visible.

THE PRAGMATIST adds : " No, it is annoying, frustrating and overwhelming. This must be dealt with now before this chaos spreads any further and we all go under and drown in a sea of clutter."

I praise myself for being AWARE . I praise myself for stepping out of panic and deciding to take action. Clearing and tidying has already started with my computer. I am saying "STOP and NO more" until we have erased , deleted and cleared a space ; tidied up.

'
Problem: I have a lot of things that don't have a 'home '.
Solution : Get rid of things that I don't need. Tidy and create a space.

In short....get ORGANISED girl .. and the fun has just begun .

LOVE WHAT YOU DO, OR DO SOMETHING ELSE

When your vocation becomes your vacation,
you'll never work another day in your life.

No one can succeed in any endeavour that they
don't like.
If you don't love what you're doing, then don't
do it.

Your chances of success are directly proportional
to the degree of pleasure you derive from what you do.

Do something that you have a deep personal
interest in.

Do something you'd enjoy spending twelve to
fifteen hours a day working at, and the rest of the time thinking
about.

Don't set compensation as your goal.Find work you like and the compensation will follow.

Work is not your punishment.
It's your reward, your strength and your pleasure.

Real success is achieved when you like what you do.
Work is love made visible.

www.dailyguru.com

This resonates with me and is my intention to live my life this way.

MY heart may be saying splurge ,indulge , but my wallet is protesting mightily.

This is where some creative thinking comes in.

Got to figure out a way to go with my desires without breaking the bank.

Someone said to me "In my estimation these are the most profound words ever given us"- Resistance is the only culprit in your physical experience.
~ Abraham-Hicks
Extract Jan/Feb/Mar 1996 newsletter

Profound words.I was meditating this morning on saying " YES " to everything and playing with the consequences.Every time a tele- marketing person rang " YES " .....another chocolate "YES" I reckon it could lead to a very exciting life. I notice too , how " exciting "is akin to " scary ".

Resisting or saying "NO" would involve fewer risks, " safety " but also standing still, stagnation , nothing happening , nothing gained.Closed.

To say that it is the only CULPRIT.. what does that mean ?

YEP, it is really midsummer. Sun and showers. Heavens just opened and rain, lots of it comes bucketing down. It's the same every year. A week ago , we were going through a heatwave and it really looked as if , for once , midsummer would be bright , hot and sunny. Nope. Tradition is tradition , " Same procedure as last year " is a phrase that gets a Swede to chuckle.

Midsummer is a big thing here in Sweden. Expectations are high. Dresssing the midsummer pole ( phallus ) with flowers and greenery , wearing white and wreaths of flowers, dancing around the midsummer pole singing " Små grodorna " and jumping about pretending to be little frogs .. unbelievably silly and they know it and love it . Food , drink and making out; spewing up, fighting , breaking uo and being remoseful the day after .. all part of the big picture. Cathartic .

Traditional Midsummer is not for me. I've made no plans . Looks like this midsummer I will be with me myself and I and that's fine ,because it is my choice. I am feeling great just writing whatever comes into my noddle and preoaring to put paint on virgin canvas. Oh yes .... yellow I think it will be .. a mandala ....creative self-expression in the safety and cosiness of my beautiful hermit cave - me myself and I. My Mystic and My Pragmatist dancing together .. but it won't be to " små grodorna " .

Ahhhh sunshine again .. I wonder where the rainbow is ?

What is it about TRANSITION ? Everywhere I turn it is in my face.
From the Daily OM :

Permission To Simply Be

Working Through Transitions
The elation we feel when we have learned an important lesson, achieved a goal, or had a big breakthrough can sometimes be met with a period of downtime afterward. During this period of transition, we may feel unsure and not know where to turn next. Many people, during the pause between achievements, begin to wonder what their life is about. These feelings are common and strike everyone from time to time. Human beings are active creatures-we feel best when we are working on a project or vigorously pursuing a goal. But there is nothing inherently wrong with spending a day, a week, or even a month simply existing and not having a plan. Just be. It won't be long before you embark upon your next voyage of growth and discovery.

( OH THIS IS MUSIC TO MY EARS !!! )

The quiet lull into we which we fall between ideas, projects, and goals can make life seem empty. After accomplishing one objective, you may want to move immediately on to the next. However, when your next step is unclear, you may feel frustrated, disconnected, or even a mild depression. You may even perceive your lack of forward momentum as an indicator of imminent stagnation. To calm these distressing thoughts, try to accept that if your intent is personal growth, you will continue to grow as an individual whether striving for a specific objective or not. Spending time immersed in life's rigors and pleasures can be a cathartic experience that gives you the time you need to think about what you have recently gone through and leisurely contemplate what you wish to do next. You may also find that in simply being and going through the motions of everyday life, you reconnect with your priorities in a very organic, unforced way.

The mindful transitional pause can take many forms. For some, it can be a period of reflection that helps them understand how their life has unfolded. For others, it can be a period of adjustment, where new values based on recent changes are integrated into daily life. Just because you're not headed swiftly to a final destination doesn't mean you should assume that you have lost your drive. The stage between journeys can become a wonderful period of relaxation that prepares you for the path that will soon be revealed to you.

Good one , Lara , everyday masters .

I wonder why we say " MASTERS " and accept the male form ??

It annoys me a little .

An American collegue made me aware of " gender friendly " texts may years ago and from that time it was been like a grain of sand in my bed.

"Today a friend asked me what all my boyfriends have in common. The answer was easy: ME. And when I said this, I realized how much time I have lost looking for the right person – because they change, while I stay the same and get nothing out of what we live together. "

This is very GESTALT . Ioannis spoke about this last week.

http://www.warriorofthelight.com/

Lara sent me this

The everyday masters

Outside the city of Oslo is getting ready for winter. I am chatting in the bar with a very popular European singer. We talk about fame and success, and at a certain moment she asks me if I have anything important to teach her.
“Of course not,” I answer. “You lead your life like someone who knows that one day they are going to die, and that is what is most important. Nevertheless, I can propose a task for you: for the next six months, keep a diary called “the everyday master.” We always learn something different between dawn and dusk: why not write it down?”
She accepts the task. Six months later, I receive a copy of her diary full of very interesting notes, lessons from people she met only once but who are certain to remain for ever. Below are some of the most important of these entries.

Accepting yourself
I found out who I am by looking at others. I am afraid of not being as good as they think I am, but I believe they all think this about themselves. During the time that I kept this diary, I finally accepted that I am brave enough to feel fear and to see myself without any artifices. I feel secure enough to feel insecure.
I discovered that people try to project a lot of their own insecurity onto you, just as you do with them. They try to diminish you because they feel small, try to intimidate you because they are not convinced that they are capable.

In search of love
Today I met a Korean who read my hand: a funny character, a wise man for the others but incapable of learning what he teaches. Of course, like all fortune-tellers, he thought that I wanted to know about my love life, so he told me things that I always need to hear:
a] I am looking for security and adventure at one and the same time, and these things do not go well together (I said nothing, but if I had to choose, I would take adventure).
b] I fall in love very quickly, and get bored just as fast. “Learn to love yourself,” he said. My problem is not exactly love, because I manage to fall in love so easily – my problem is to show this love, my relating with others.
c] Why do I get into so many frustrated relationships with so many men? Because I feel that I always have to be relating with someone – and so I am forced to be fascinating, intelligent, sensitive, and exceptional. The effort of seducing makes me give the best of myself, and that helps me. Besides, it is very hard to live with myself.

Avoiding keeping control or being controlled
If I react the way that people expect me to, I become a slave to them – and that is a lesson that applies both to love and work. It is very difficult to prevent this from happening, because we are always ready to please somebody, or to start a war when we are provoked, but people and situations are the consequences of the life that I have chosen, not the other way around.

Old boyfriends
Today a friend asked me what all my boyfriends have in common. The answer was easy: ME. And when I said this, I realized how much time I have lost looking for the right person – because they change, while I stay the same and get nothing out of what we live together.
What makes me distance myself from men who could be important in my life? The need always to be in control. The odd thing is that when I begin to feel jealous, or when I can no longer stand the amorous relationship, men who were so independent and so full of themselves turn into scared little lambs. They become afraid of losing me. At that moment I can no longer respect them and the relationship becomes impossible.
My friend insisted: “Have you ever loved anyone?” I have always been afraid of that question, but Paulo asked me to write this diary and so I have to give an answer. No, I have never loved anyone. I have had many men but I have always waited for the right person. I have been all round the world and have not managed to find the home that I am looking for. I have been in control and have been controlled, and relationships have never gone beyond that.
Now that I have answered “No, I have never loved anyone,” I feel freer. I see what is missing in my life.

I am in the most wonderful time of transition.

I am living in a time of change. It is a time of releasing old, limiting beliefs and learning new ways of thinking. Loneliness, anger, fear, and pain are all part of the old fear syndrome, and that is what I choose to change. I choose to move from fear into love. I am learning to go within, and I find that I have the power to change myself and my world. I no longer need to be a victim. I can choose thoughts and beliefs that lead to freedom. I have learned to take responsibility for my life and to respond in ways that empower me and make positive changes in my life.

I am willing to change.

Louise Hay

YES .. me too .. I am willing to change. Transition canfeel uncomfortable , uncertain, scary even .. but right now I feel the excitement , anticipation , exhileration even ... joy of leaving, discarding old skin, shell, clutter, structures, outdated beliefs, sorrows, worries etc and blessing it ..... leaving it all behind.. moving on .... YES .. so be it and so it is.

Some Descriptions and Qualities of the Divine, Eternal Self

Omnipresent (everywhere at once).
Omnipotent (all powerful).
Omniscient (all-knowing).
Eternal, infinite perfection of being.
Infinite Being, love, and wisdom.
Infinite, endless light.
Self that is free from all attachments and beyond all action.
Self that is constant, unchanging, indestructible, and immutable. Is always the same.
Self that is the observer, the witness of your experience.
Witness of the activities of mind, but not identified with them.
Source of all answers.
A center of consciousness within the One Life.
A center of consciousness in the great ocean of Life.
A center of consciousness upon the surface of the one great “I”.
The consciousness of the whole, manifesting through your point or center of consciousness.
Consciousness at rest, no thought.

Note that all words or descriptions of the Divine Self are inadequate; the Self is can only be known through a direct experience of It and cannot be known through the rational mind.

Your consciousness gradually expands until it realizes its identity with the Whole. Under all forms and names of the visible world, there is to be found One Life–One Force–One Existence–One Reality–ONE.

From ; http://www.orindaben.com/newsletter/contactds.htm

“Change. It has the power to uplift, to heal, to
stimulate, surprise, open new doors, bring fresh
experience and create excitement in life.
Certainly it is worth the risk.”

-- Leo Buscaglia

YES .. every moment is a fresh moment.

Detach yourself from your stuff.

You're not what you have and you're not what you do; you're an infinite, divine being disguised as a successful person who has accumulated a certain amount of stuff. The stuff is not you. For that reason, you must avoid being attached to it in any way.

Wayne Dyer

Attract what you desire.

If you're experiencing scarcity, anguish, depression, an absence of love--or any inability to attract what you desire--seriously look at how you've been drawing these circumstances into your life.

Wayne Dyer

Be aware of your immortal self.

Let go of the idea that you're a body that's destined to die, and instead seek an awareness of your immortal self. Affirm: I am eternal, and that means that I showed up here from the infinitude of spiritual intention to fulfill a destiny that I must act on.

Wayne Dyer

Go for passion!

"There is no end. There is no beginning. There is
only the infinite passion of life."

-- Frederico Fellini

How do you ration your passion?

I think it has something to do with denial. Denial of what ? Longings , desires ?.How ? by being afraid. Afraid of what ? Afraid of failing.

In what situations have you experienced your life to the fullest?

I don’t know. Difficult question. Oh I know ......
When saying YES YES YES !!! That’s when .Saying YES emphatically to all the highs and lows. By staying OPEN .

But in what specific situations- have to think about that .

Passion emerges when your essence expresses itself.
How do you stop yourself from fully expressing who you are?

"Without passion man is a mere latent force and
possibility, like the flint which awaits the shock
of the iron before it can give forth its spark."

-- Henri Frederic Amiel

"We could hardly wait to get up in the morning."

-- Wilbur Wright

Hmmmmm that man must not be enjoying his nights ;-)

Happy birthday Lina in Paris !
Have a wonderful day .. love love love and joy in all dimensions.

YES !

At the same time , a little bees wax angel arrived from Lina's mum in Gotland .SWEET ! Thank you Maarja !

I am aware that I am repeating myself.

Why ?

It's a way of reflecting , I suppose; digesting and taking it all in.

In the tavern

Rabbi Wolf entered a bar by chance. Some people were drinking, others were playing cards, and the atmosphere seemed heavy. The rabbi left without saying a word.

A young man followed him out: “I know that you didn’t like what you saw in there,” he said. “That’s a place for sinners.”

“No, I liked what I saw,” Wolf answered. “Those are men learning to lose everything. When they have lived the experience of losing, all that will remain is for them is to return to God. And from that moment on, what excellent servants they will make!”

http://www.warriorofthelight.com/engl/index.html

GJM meeting 21 June 2206

June 22, 2006 Felt sad on the way home. Why ? I think it was because J decided to leave so abrubtly . I was dependant on the lift back into town.

I said we still had to do a reading for Jn and myself afterwards but immediately felt J's resentment . Felt sort of passive aggresive. She seemed to be annoyed but said it was ok .

Right and the end of a beautiful evening too.
I felt suddenly uprooted - like a plant being pulled up suddenly out of the soil.

One of the questions we asked each other :

What would you do if you were in prison ? What would help you overcome or bare this situation?

G wanted everyone to answer the question and got annoyed when we didn't stick to the plan then felt ashamed.

Sprit animal messages :

Jn Swan - GRACE - came in answer to his question about being on the threshold.

J : Moon

G : FROG

Me : Raven ( in answer to insights about the mentor position that I am applying for ) Raven brings MAGIC .

On the way home I got a text from Lara in Siberia .
I started texting her when a call came in so can't remember if I replied or not.

Reflecting now on the day gone by . Our meeting lasted all day . Beautiful surroundings too.

G&Js house overlooks the Baltic sea and you can see the big ferries passing by .. it is soooo beautiful there.

Jncame home and joined us for dinner ; fresh salmon baked in the oven with leeks and new potatoes with lots of dill , then yummy
chocolate cake with strawberries and icecream .. crisp white wine well chilled .

At one point i was gazing out of the kitchen window onto lilacs and lots of green shrubbery and many lupins .. It was raining and everything looked so beautiful and fresh through the haze of the gentle warm summer rain.

Wednesday , 21 June , The Summer Solstice and the longest day of the year. The sun did show its face earlier today but now, rain , warm refreshing rain that brings out a whole range of fragrances.

Four of us spent the day at a friend's house - overlooking the Baltic sea. Ever so often one of the big ferries would swan by .. huge floating houses returning or heading out towards the archepalago , Finland and Åland .

Four of us had synergy today as we shared our wishes and prepared to manifest our future. Synergy :The sum of the whole greater than the sum of the individual parts.

I lost all track of time.

later, dinner .. fresh salmon baked in the oven with leek and new potatoes, fresh rocket and carrot salad and finally ,strawberries and ice cream and a lovely white wine .. Notting Hill..... ice cold , dry and fresh.

Afterwards , sitting at the heavy oak table in the kitchen I gaze through the open window and my eyes rest on the lilac trees in bloom and then surf across the many different shades of lush green into a fantasty world of fairies and devas.Solstices are times when the veils between our worlds are thin and magic abounds. It's a special time ; nearly midsummer dreaming.

Now sleeeeeep ,,night night all peacezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

6 PILLARS OF´SELF-ESTEEM " By Nathaniel Branden is a Wisdom flash and can be viewed at :

http://www.thedailyguru.com/flashwisdom.htm

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" A WisdomFlash is a modern-day poem. It is the
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Wisdom Flash combines these messages with beautiful photographic imagery, peaceful background music and compelling flash animation to deliver the message to you in the most inspirational way."

They attacked .. nibbled at us , drew blood , lots of it. Apart from leaving huge red blotches they itch like crazy. Grrrrrrrr.

Roll-on repellents irritate my delicate sensitive skin and the burners are no use at all. Haven't tried the bracelets - are they any good ? All ideas and tips welcome.. especially to relieve itching and after bite care , ¨

Thanks.