Peer group meeting at my place to review 2006 and set goals for 2007.

The veggie lasagna turned out really well. Mushrooms , chevre cheese , tomatoes and a mixed green salad with rocket and slivers of carrot and parmesan cheese, washed down with Nebbiolo 2003. My very huge and delicate Vilroy and Bosche glasses wre brought out to do the wine justice . I think you could actually get a whole bottle of wine into one glass - not that you would want to.

The nuns talk about obedience , that is it isn't easy , since you have your own will , but when you are obedient , they say , it has its own rewards.

I've always had a problem with obedience.
Paradoxically , though, unconditional surrender is sometimes the answer,

Ahem.

write.. right .. exercising my right to write .. clearing my mind .....

Sometimes I say things that I regret or nearly regret and feel all open, exposed and vulnerable ...but why ? .. cos that is not the truth either. Even if I revealed everything there was to reveal - it would still amount to nothing significant.

" Anything you say may me taken down and used in evidence against you " This is the fear, isn't it ?

Why put thoughts and feelings out here ? Why be a blog amongst millions of others? A blip among countless blips ? Who cares ?

Ego. It must have to do with satisfying the ego. The soul, the true self has no worries or cares. It simply IS and all it does is continuously express itself through the body. Self- expression.

Maybe I am naiive. I think maybe I am , but that is not completely true either as there is a very suspicious , cautious, cynical subpersonality in there also.

I find myself caught between two worlds ; the existential world and the social world. Both exist simultaneously but I shift in my thinking constinuously from one to the other. I live and love in BOTH worlds.

The true story of how I feel changes daily, by the minute, by the second , every passing moment. What I was when I started writing I am no more. Something else.
Ok. I 'm not going to re- read this . Come on Ego, I'm taking you out for a walk to the shops to buy veggies and the ingredients for a lasagna.

A Rather Blustery Night
Hum, dum, dum, dee, dee, dum
Hum, dum, dum
Oh the wind is lashing lusterly
And the trees are thrashing thrusterly
And the leaves are rustling gusterly
So it's rather safe to say
That it seems that it may turn out to be
It feels that it will undoubteadly
Looks like a rather blustery night tonight
It seems that it may turn out to be
Feels that it will undoubteadly
Looks like a rather blustery night tonight

25,000 homes without electricity near Skavsta , that 's where the Ryan Air planes land and take off but maybe not tonight. Not a good day for flying in or out of the country.

Thinking about going to Antwerp in February, for a few days.Filghts go to Charleroi and how does one get from there to Antwerp ? Hmmmmmm Is is easy or a hassle. Will sleep on it.

night night all over and out .peace zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz