We have a huge barrel of wine, but no cups.
That’s fine with us. Every morning
we glow and in the evening we glow again.
They say there’s no future for us. They’re right.
Which is fine with us.

RUMI

Night night everyone , lots of love and hugs X

Quite a few times now , around 9:10 pm my computer re-starts by itself - without so much as a by your leave !

Why is this ?

Any offers ?
Weird .

This moment is as it should be, because the whole universe is as it should be. The moment -- the one you're experiencing right now-- is the culmination of all the moments you have experienced in the past. This moment is as it is because the entire universe is as it is.

from: The seven spiritual laws of success By Deepak Chopra

There are days that are strange. Days when nothing sensible gets done. Today is one of those days. I am in what I call " Zombie mode " .Not exactly unpleasant .. but sort of nebulous and abstract. I drift along and pick things up along the way. Here's something I found that looks interesting. May even be an anti- dote

Many events will transpire in which your conditioned response is to feel bad. Be
aware of these outer incidents, and say the five magic words: I want to feel
good. In that precise moment, ask yourself if feeling bad is going to make the situation any better. You'll discover that the only thing that feeling bad accomplishes in response to outer situations is to plummet you into anxiety,
despair, depression, and of course, stress.

Instead, ask yourself in that moment what thought you can have that will make you feel good. When you discover that it's responding with kindness and love to the bad feeling ( which is quite different from wallowing in it), you'll begin experiencing a shift in your emotional state. Now you're in vibrational harmony with your Source, since the power of intention knows only peace, kindness, and love.

This newly activated thought, which allows you to feel good, may only last a few
moments, and you might go back to your previous way of processing unpleasant
events. Also treat that old way of processing with respect, love, and
understanding, but remember that it's your ego-self trying to protect you from
its perception of danger.

Wayne Dyer

Part of my dream last night was painful and worrying
In this dream I am a young Roman soldier
I am told that I have to go and fight in a war.
Do you like fighting ?
Are you a good fighter ? asks the commander
No, I reply , I don't I hate fighting , there's nothing I like less
Oh well, then you can be cannon fodder , he asserts , plainly and matter of fact.
Yikes , thinketh I
the thought of dying doesn't worry me but the pain of being stabbed by a sword or having an arm or leg chopped off .. ouch .. too nasty
And yet .. in the dream this fate seems inevitable
Already I am thinking up evasive techniques
Maye a run for it
Escape
Take my chances on the run .. anything is better than being cannon fodder and fighting for something you have no desire to be fighting for.

The feeling of fear and resentment being used this way is something I would not wish on anyone.

In waking awareness it brings to mind so many powerless child soldiers and other people who are drawn into fights against their will.
Shocking
Appalling.

Stream of consciousness writing
being in the now
I'm reading Maharishi's book " The Science of Being "
that D gave me
Keep it he said
Sweet
Fascinating
Ilearned the TM meditation technique in 1973
have used it on and off
The first experiences were very powerful
Still remember the images
helped me through a rough time
when A and I broke up
that was traumatic
felt I had noone to talk to
Think it was the closest I'd come to nervous breakdown
existing as if in a fog
not in touch with things
living life second hand
like watching a film
disidentified not taking part.
When student is ready teacher appears
and so it was
Meeting veggie friends
artists , sculptors, writers, musicians
people living simply out in the country
in Sala , veins of silver in the ground
houses in the woods , no mod cons
and meditation
initiation into TM
Meditation twice a day brings results
I've been sloppy about this lately
My mind is so full of thoughts
Clearing of mind clutter necessary
like spring clean of computer
give it a rest
give the busy mind chatter a rest
breathe
I am watching less TV
listening less to music
feeling peace and harmony
at the same time overwhelm of thoughts
and things I'd like to do
lists in my mind
that remain lists
numbess and paralysis sets in.
Tricky getting the balance right between BEING and DOING
Action and non action
Wonder what my Tarot card for the day is ?
Might even start writing " morning pages "

"Everyone who has ever taken a shower has had an
idea. It's the person who gets out of the shower,
dries off, and does something about it that makes
a difference."

-- Nolan Bushnell

There is something so inspirational about the shower.Ideas and insights arrive seemingly out of the blue.THOUGHT - FEELING - ACTION . From now on I intend to put the ideas that arise into action.

go on .....Clickety click here :

http://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/humour/flattery.html

I put my couldron to work tonight
MB was here for dinner.

Pasta sauce

onions
garlic
Carton tomato "passata"
Zuchini
red, orange, green peppers
herb salt
chillies
simmer

Cook pasta - tonight it was tagliatelli
throw in lots of shelled prawns
Voila´!

slice aubergine lengthways covered with salt and leave to sweat ( removes excess moisture )
brush with olive oil and grill till brown and a biut crispy
Mix thick Greek yoghurt with garlilc and serve this together with aubergine ( mmmmm )

Crisp green mixed salad with grated carrot

MB enjoyed the pasta and was too full for dessert which would have been French chocolate cake with raspberry sauce.

So, we've caught up now on each other's lives.
I've known MB for 30 years.
I was pregnant the first time we met and he and his friends have all become The profs fairy godfathers.We've shared so many adventures.
It's nice to have old friends, especially those who speak frankly and accept you as you are , warts and all,

So another Wednesday comes to ab end.
MB has promised to take me to the rubbish tip next week ... well .. not ME .. you understand but all my rubbish that needs to be taken awayD:D:D:p clearing clutter

Sweet dreams .. night night