Dearest Theres ,
Thank you for the question . What have you longed for all your life ?
After some contemplation this is what comes to me :

I have longed to live , love and breathe in the rhythm of my soul. I have longed for space. I have longed to do things in my own time and at my own pace. I have longed to be free from stress, pushiness , demands, expectations, judgements. I have longed to be in the flow. To live a simple life of love and ease full of beauty. To live in the NOW , loving what IS . I have longed to use my life for the highest good; to have a meaningful interesting interactive exciting life.

I am a strong independent wilful woman who also needs to be loved and held from time to time when I am littel and vulnerable , I have longed for a soul mate and I have found several along my path or they have found me. I have longed for someone to lean on and to hold me . Fortunately I have always felt the hand of Spirit holding mine. Without this link , life would have been more difficult. Impossible even. I have always felt held and guided by Spirit.

But this is a physical reality with all that that entails. The senses. Sight , sound, smell, taste, touch. As a living , breathing, emotional passionate sensuous being I have also longed for touch ; the experience of physical passion, intimacy , sensual pleasures of all kinds. be it food or sex or enjoying the full moon or a rainbow , a babbling brook , flowing river , waterfall or an ocean full of waves; sinking into a hot fragrant bubble bath after being frozen to the core or after a dusty sweaty hot day of sightseeing in a strange new town; floating naked on my back in a warm salty azure blue sea with the hot sun on my face ! I have longed for stimulating senses... sensuousness.. all the pleasures of the flesh. I have longed to express myself . I have longed to feel safe.I have longed to be seen and understood . ( even though I don't always undertsand myself lol )

Longing for me is in the future and I prefer to be in the NOW with all the present has to offer. When I am longing , I know that I am probably missing what is going on in this sacred instant. Daydreaming is fun though. I like to do it a lot.

So, more of the the same . More of what I have already been given. Maybe one special lover and best friend ?

Thank you for sharing your meditation with me Theres. I know that I am the creator of my reality. You question has helped me start creating for the " sista kvarten " hehehe !