15:15 on the way back from my walk I look up and see the cresent moon between the church and the tree tops.

Thoughts while walking around the lake :

Memory

Everything before the present moment is memory.
All that MIra has experienced is a unique memory and exists only as a memory in Mira's mind.
A memory can feel very real.
Who I essentially am is a memory ; as story that I have created about myself and that others have created about me in their relationship with me.

That said , I think all this will sound better after a few drinks of wine

Maarja and Lina gave me an amaryllis when they were here on New years Day. It grew and it grew taller and taller until yesterday I suddenly heard it creaaaaak as it keeled over

Well .. armed with a sharp kitchen knife to minimise pain , I decided to amputate and place in this tall vase where it continues to bloom and grow.

A Sunny Sunday today .. hurray !
I might get round to going out in the sunshine´if I get my act together and get off the computer

I get side tracked replying to a lovely e-mail from Marie who is now living in Brazil. I have to be spontaneous and do what I feel like in the moment.

There was also a really interesting message in the weekly Kabbala tune up newsletter.

We have no awareness of desire that is already fulfilled.

The kabbalists explain that when we - the souls of humanity - were originally created, every possible desire was already fulfilled. We were born a completely fulfilled soul.

" We were also born unappreciative of what the Creator was instilling within us.

So, I'm taking that thought with me as I walk around the lake in the sunshine before it sets.

TTFN