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Year in the life meme (From aj and landers)

by miramaze @ Saturday, 02. Feb, 2008 - 20:12:19

" Year in the life meme.
by ajnspencer @ 02/02/08 - 13:19:46
Respond to this, ask for a year to write about, and write a post about what you were doing in that year. "

aj was given 1995 by landers , and I was given 1991 by aj

Funny that aj should pick just that year because 1991 was a very memorable and significant year . It was the year of initiations into the serious world of adults. It's when I seriously started to study in " The School of Life "

It was the year of the Gulf War and I started to tune in and pick up on suffering in the World Soul. Before that time I'd not really allowed world events to affect me.

1991 marked the start of my physical and psycho -spiritual transformation , It was an initiation by fire . At least that is how it felt.

It started with back problems in the spring, which I'd never had before and in July developed eczema on my face and chest which later spread to arms , and the insides of my thighs- huge weeping sores and scaly skin that itched and hurt like nobody's business.

Midsummer that year was gorgeous. Some friends and I got together and organised a white tie do at a castle. We had the works and were attended by a staff and caterers who prepared a three course meal. Afterwards there was dancing and a tour of the castle. The magical celebrations continued throughout the night. One friend in particular looked dashing in his tux that he'd bought specially for the occasion. It was to be Ove's last party.

When I returned from England in the middle of July , my face a mass of weeping sores , I was told that Ove was sick .- he had pneumonia and was in hospital. I found him very frail hooked up to tubes and machines. Ove had AIDS , but was not telling anyone. It was his secret. I don't think he ever came out if hospital. The last time I saw Ove was Friday , 13 October 1991 .He died the following Tuesday, aged 39.

I remember that day well. I was having a reflexology treatment. After the treatment I was left to relax for 10 minutes before getting up and had a distinct feeling that someone was sitting on the edge of the couch, I learned later that Ove died that day in the afternoon around the time of my treatment,

I experienced all kinds of treatments that year ; Zone therapy, acupuncture , deep tissue massage , homeopathy, colour therapy, dream therapy,healing and had the dentist remove all the amalgam mercury fillings. All in an effort to stop the itching and the soreness. In fact , each treatment helped but did not fix. Im retrospect I see this as hands on education in a range of alternative treatments and the symptoms were probably the beginning of burnout.

Today I started looking for my diary for 1991 and realised to my disappointment that there wasn't one :( only a small diary that I used for appointments. I have very few regrets , but I do wish I'd started keeping a journal in 1991. As a result 1991- 1998 are very vague. but 1991 was an unforgettable year; it felt like the loss of innocence in many ways. It was the first time I'd been to a friend's funeral.

How's that for a year , aj ? ;) Good choice !


 
 

Still muffled

by miramaze @ Saturday, 02. Feb, 2008 - 15:16:37

Still feeling muffled. My Self expression is muffled
It's not always easy to find a word to describe a feeling or a mood, but this word came to me as I was writing my morning pages this morning.

muf·fle 1 (mfl)
tr.v. muf·fled, muf·fling, muf·fles
1. To wrap up, as in a blanket or shawl, for warmth, protection, or secrecy.
2.
a. To wrap or pad in order to deaden the sound: muffled the drums.
b. To deaden (a sound): The sand muffled the hoofbeats.
3. To make vague or obscure: "His message was so muffled by learning and 'artiness'" Walter Blair.
4. To repress; stifle.
n.
1. Something that muffles.
2. A kiln or part of a kiln in which pottery can be fired without being exposed to direct flame.
[Middle English muflen, possibly from Old French mofler, to stuff, from mofle, glove; see muff2.]

Much in this definition is appropriate :yes:
The nose spray is not much good. Right nostril seems to be the worst. At least the left one is open .

It's annoying that I can't get on with my clearing of clutter but instead it's " acceptance of what is " that is the menu of the day .

Ha ... isn't life wonderful ? :))

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