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*thinking out aloud *

As usual , no plans made.
What do I FEEL like doing ?
No special wishes.

Have just texted The Prof asking him about his plans,

I would like to see him and Johanna , but not at the expense of a lot of cleaning and preparation.

Brunch would be nice, without expectations.

My friends are all doing their own thing

Michael is flying
Lena and Jill off skiing
Gunilla packing and moving home
Maarja .. I'll phone Maarja ... but she might be going to her mum's in Gothenburg
Ann- Stina will be at her mum's in the country

*sighs*

I'll just do my own thing - whatever I feel like at the time

Unless I think of something else ..... in the meantime

I get it !! I finally get it .

I am learning to shed future fear.
Fear is never about the past , it is about the future , what MIGHT or MIGHT NOT happen. All is well in the now.
Too much time and effort goes into worrying.
At least now I am aware of this and with awarness comes choice.

What will the future will bring?
If I take care of the present , the future will take care of itself.

I now know that I can calm my trickster monkey mind and regain the ability to gaze confidently into my future by regularly affirming my capability, I CAN DO IT with intelligence, skillfulness, creativity and resources. I can actually FEEL the shift in my body as I affirm these words " I can do it "

Each time I catch myself thinking a critical , pessimistic or stressful thought I can examine it and turn it around if it is based on a lie. Invariably it always is.

" Although I am worried about XYZ , I also know that I have what it takes to overcome , succeed, solve, deal with anything and everything that comes my way "

I also now know that everything that the Universe sends is a gift.
This belief is incredibly empowering.
Everything can be turned to my advantage.
Creativity comes in here.

Quieting my critical inner voice can helps me look toward the future with optimistic eyes.

I know from past experience that most of what I have feared will likely never come to pass and is merely an invention of my inner critic. or something.Courage silences this critic and as courage courage gradually overwrites the inner critic optimism returns.