It's absolutely gorgeous here today , about 23C and I'm still pottering around at home. Things take time. Everything, unless you happen to be rushing around in a frenzy, which I refuse to do. Instead I go from one thing to another , slowly , at snails pace , savouring and enjoying.

Spoke to the pidges first thing this morning about the racket they were making on my balcony practising their take-offs and landings and showing off. They have got quite fearless of me now, but there is still an ounce or two of respect. Mrs Pidge is silent and content to sit on her two newly laid eggs.

Spoke to depressed friend on the phone who was going to come round but then phoned to say that they were not up to it I think I might pop round on my way into town , just for a few minutes.

Rashid has invited me to the cinema. I think we're seeing " The Bucket List" nice comedy / drama - nothing too demanding.

Have also started to plan trip to Canterbury and the EFPP conference. Have booked 1 -11 August and will have to work out details of where to stay and who to decend upon later. Any offers ?

toodle pip

Could this be it ? Pidges flying debut approaches.
Mrs Pidge, far right , has just told the pidges to sit on the balcony rail and survey the roof tops of Sundbyberg. " It won't be long now, lads" , says Mrs Pidge. " Have a good look now .Preparedness is everything "

Sp they all stood there and looked ......

.. and Mrs Pidge decided to stand on the left to pose for this picture .

... and the lads stepped down onto more solid ground , while Mrs Pidge decided it was time to return to her newly laid eggs.
" All for today lads. Maybe tomorrow will be the day you flex your wings and fly over all the places you have seen today from this spot "

"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

Good stuff .. well worth reading.

The Bridge ~ Reminder #91
Not Guilty

Let not your heart be troubled

Perhaps one of the greatest challenges that faces the average person today is believing in their own self worth. From the time we were small children, our view of our highest light has been undermined. It's pretty easy to recall past experiences where we've been told that we were less than we thought we were or that we'd made a mistake. Our teachers, parents, peers, the TV, and all sorts of sources have, either consciously or unconsciously, talked us into limiting ourselves. Over a lifetime, our power was slowly but steadily stripped away from us. But now all of that is changing.

These teachings emphasize that you've never made a mistake. When the incident occurred where you thought you'd made a mistake, it wasn't until after the incident was over that you gleaned the knowledge from it. While the incident was still in progress, you were only operating on the basis of the best information that you had at the time. In truth, you couldn't have known any better and, therefore, there was no reason for you to beat yourself up about it. You were presented with a lesson, but no mistake was made.

Learning a lesson and making a mistake are two entirely different things. Lessons don't carry the same feelings as mistakes. There's no guilt attached to our lessons, but mistakes imply that we've done something wrong. Those who view life from a higher perspective know that they've never done anything wrong. Everything just happens and it doesn't serve us to place moral judgments on any events that occur in our lives. The concept of right and wrong is simply another illusion that doesn't exist for us unless we nourish it. We can choose to plead not guilty to all of the menacing should haves that charge us with wrongdoing. In our mind, we can assert that everything is all right regardless of what others may say, and, in doing so, we return to the innocence we were born with.

Each person is responsible for his or her own happiness. You needn't feel guilt or obligation in regard to other people. It isn't your fault if you inadvertantly made them unhappy. They are only relating to you according to their own past experiences and their own processes.

Truly, it is not someone else's decision as to whether you are a good or kind or loving person. If you and your soul intend to be good and kind and loving and gentle, and even if you are those things and others don't see it, it's their shortsightedness. It is not you.

My Intention for today is:

I Intend that I am always seeing myself in my highest light.

We encourage you to forward this message to your list of friends. If this message was sent to you from a friend, you can go to http://www.intenders.org to sign up free for The Intenders Bridge.

Had my first physiotherapy session today and the clinic is right across the road from where I live. How's that for convenient

Fredrik is nice and has done part of his training in Australia and part in the USA. Asked me a lot of questions and typed stuff into the computer, had me walking up and down the corridor, forwards, backwards and sideways; examined both my ankles, and gave me exercises to do x2 every day.

I have a sprained ankle and apparently do not walk on my feet as I should, heel , middle part of foot and ball of foot should all take the same amount of weight. Interesting what you learn. Fredrik also taught me how to bandage my ankle for maximum support. We are going to discuss footwear soon which should be interesting and , I fear , expensive Still , I am so grateful for this help. Hopefully all this will make it less likely for me to sprain my ankle again. My right leg is weaker due to a skiing injury and surgery 30 years ago.

I've come to realise that our bodies are precious " costumes " and need TLC attention and appreciation on a daily basis and not simply taken for granted.

It is supposed to help me with my on-line banking.
Seems like you are supposed to use this gadget together with your Visa card .
The buttons say LOGIN ...BUY ..... CODE ..... SIGN ..... C .... and OK
How exciting !!!
Must read the instruction booklet .... oh the joys of modern technology lol

Passport forms arrived along with detailed instructions. It's an expensive do getting a new passport; 1520 SEK plus 70 SEK for postage and 199 SEK for 4 photos , though you only need two and must be taken within the last month. Grand total : 1,789 SEK ( 145 GBP or 184 Euros ) but I'll save 70 kronor by going there in person ... or will I ... it might have to be sent from the UK
Passport photo was done in 5 minutes though

So now all that remains is for me to fill in the form , have someone countersign the form and photo stating that this is indeed a true likeness of Ms Mira whom I have known for X years and then take it to the British Embassy on Djurgården I can do that

I think we have just had our first day of real summer. The sun was hot and my arms got a bit of colour while having lunch with Lotta at a small restaurant overlooking the water on Strandvägen. There was a bit of drama too as the horse guards passed by. One of the horses threw its rider. *Gasp* as the other horses and riders started to become anxious and we could see that the riders had trouble controlling them. Fortunately the man wasn't hurt and was able to get back on his horse and the procession carried on its way.

It seriously looks like round two for The Pidges !! There are three pigeons on the balcony this evening , and none of them are making any tempt to fly away. She's looking all puffed up and I'm sure she's laying eggs otherwise she would have flown away .

The babies , looking very adult with only a trace of yellow baby feathers left on their heads can't fly yet and Mrs Pidge ain't budging !!

To be continued ........

Mrs P writes : I'm not sure why I am fascinated with the moon.
http://tylluanpenry.blog.co.uk/2008/05/27/the-moon-4228553

Me too , Mrs P . I am a true lunatic ... oh la bella luna !

My mum told me that if you slept in moonlight , you would become a slave of the moon. Perhaps it's true. I do moonbathe and challenge this thought often and I must admit to being enchanted.

To me, the moon is not just rock. She is a mysterious mirror. She is the Goddess with direct access to the deepest crevices of our minds and psyche; she knows our secret desires and longings. She shines on a landscape of elusive dreams and fearful imaginings. For us to face these head on,would sometimes be too powerful , so she reflects them cleverly as riddles. She is both ambiguous and enigmatic. She works together with the sun to illumimate and enlighten. The sun shines and she reflects.

Lilies and roses are her flowers.

The moon plays with waters everywhere and creates pools of forgetfullness when things get too much.

The goddess moon is also about fluctuation and confusion and is a patron of creativity and artistic thought; poetry, painting and music . She shines graciously on lovers everywhere. She is sensual, affectionate and tender.

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Today ... I discovered that I cannot blog on the balcony. The sun is too bright and I can't see the screen. Ah well.

Met my soul sisters G, J and L for dinner last night at Gunilla's new flat. I was the first to arrive a 6 pack of luxurious lambi loo paper under my arm and yummy carte d'or vanilla ice cream. that G had asked me to purchase as she'd not had time. Being a lady of leisure compared to my stressed out hardworking sister I was only too happy to oblige. Saved me having to go to the Systembolaget for a bottle of wine. I was given a big glass of very fine Italian red on arrival. Yum I was allowed to so a bit of chopping. Did you know that chunks of blood-grapefruit added to a leafy green salad add a special treat to the taste buds ?

Lena arrived from her island with a huge bouquet of lilacs and Jill with a fine bottle of Masi.

Baked salmon on a bed of leeks and spring onions and later topped with chevre with a huge leafy green salad, new potatoes and then Ice cream and fresh raspberries for dessert.

We are all very much strong-willed independent women with a need to assert ourselves and not become victims of circumstance. Big changes and challenges for each of us lie ahead and we need these nourishing meetings.As the sun illumines the moon and the stars, so let us illumine one another. The hours flew by - 7 pm - 12 am wooosh.. gone ! I hope we will meet again soon .

Keywords for the evening : Self-Management Leadership, Power, Authority, Integrity, Consciousness, Courage, Action,

I'm affirming :
I honour myself. I offer my light and service to the world.

*wicked laugh* sorry .......

...teee heee

awwwwww.. ...... I wonder if he knows ?

IMAGINATION / Anjan Sen

From the Kalpa began imagination
From the leaves of the Meghduta , a grey cloud
Floated down in front of us.
The Kalpadruma shuddered
Gold Silver dust kept falling
Diamonds coals mud kept falling
The eyelid flickered
One bird is flying become Bihag
A woodcutter was gathering wood from Kalpadruma

(TRANSLATED from Bengali by Amlan Dasgupta)

collected in TIN BISSE DIN RATRI (1987) , original title :kalpana
NOTES :
Kalpa=endlesstime ,fulfilment of desire , concept of creation and destruction.
Kalpadruma= kalpa-tree , Bihag = Indian evening melody (raga) ,Meghaduta

Anjan Sen / JOURNEY

Flowers bloom in the footsteps of one who goes
Pulluig away all attractions and burdens
And while going ,sweat stains the chosen path.
Flowers bloom , the journey becomes meaningful.
A flurry in the path of speech
Oblique attractions
Starled , one hesitates
And goes again
And in going words become fire and water
Earth and universe.
Speech continues
And the earthly rhythms of common speech
Become verses
Going .

1989(Translated from Bengali by Amlan Dsgupta ,Collected in Goudbochon Kothon Bisswa ,1993)

Anjan Sen / Flow

And flows goes on
Standing rock- deep in the holy river , the hibiscus sky
Where hast thou come O river
The flowing locks of the destroyer , in mountains
When the fire of the skies cool, water
Drenches the soilo and soothes the eyes
Life flows on through the rain,
And men discuss it as hope
And sing its praises
Call the river their mother,
Sing hymns
In their primal , magical belief
Sky rain mountain river water
Flowing

1989(Translated from Bengali by Amlan Dsgupta ,Collected in Goudbochon Kothon Bisswa ,1993

Anjan sent me these poems asking for feedback which I have given him and have been given permission to share them with you.

" Dear Mira ,I write in Bengali ,sometime I paint in tempara which is extension of my poems.,interested to know about your works. I am sending u 3 of my poems translated from Bengali ,just to have your reaction as a person of differtnt country/culture.
b/rgds, Anjan

Sorrow's family has left
Its rundown ancestral home
Heading down the path of poverty

The universe will be a village, my dear.

(”Translated by Jesse Knutson,)

Anjan Sen/ Shadow

The shadow shakes
The shadow's shadow floats
In the room on the edge of the river
Long long painted scrolls
The story comes in pieces and goes on
In the mind's long painted scroll
Long painted eyes a body in the eyes
But she's not at home
There's no speech, only speech's shadow
These images from words
All blessed illusion

( Translated by : Jesse Knutson

Anjan Sen / Cloud Form

The cloud went after a cloud;

Meghanåd also cried like a cloud when he was born;

The tired cloud rest on a mountain's breast.

A nervous yakßa said 'go and carry my news';

The cloud went stepping over the sky's undertow.

Seeing the black cloud

I thought of my dark K(R)ߪa...

Lady you got wet in the corner of the courtyard

And your dress oozes and oozes

Pitter patter pitter patter
I thought of my dark Kali...

On the cloud, my heart,
and on a tender stage, her frightening face sways.

The cloud forms and it transforms...

( Translated by Jesse Knutson ) "

I'll forward your comments to Anjan . Thank you

x

Dreamed about people from the past. Anita, Christina and Jonas.

Jonas had found an ingenious and strange method of cleaning a rug. He had it in a huge tub of water together with lard or grease of some sort Odd.. very odd.

Anita , Christina and I meet in Anita's flat and Christina suggests I go out to lunch with her. Anita tags on.

I think these dreams must be about my subpersonalities represented by these people. They are all parts of me and have been with me a long time. Only Christina is in my life now. We meet infrequently but our meetings are always heartfelt , meaningful and enjoyable.

Both Jonas and Anita are strong personalities but they wear masks , seduced by glamour and the material.

Jonas: generous, talented, skillful, mischievous, manipulating, controlling, possessive, jealous, charming,

Anita: Vain, in denial, one of a kind, sophisticated, eccentric, bitter, vengeful, talented, skillful, childlike, false, artificial, scared, achieves superficial success,stingy, controlling,manipulative, loyal,

Christina is a good mother, gayia, pioneer, compassionate,somewhat narcissistic, spiritual , religious, powerful, couragous, wise, caring,creative.

Christina is still a role model.
Hmmmmmmmmm food for thought there

Another bright and sunny day.
Woke up at 5 am , pondered awhile , and went back to sleep. I have been waking up at this hour a lot recently. This could evolve into a good habit; a regular 5 am meditation to greet the dawn as a way of starting the day.

LISTEN to the exhortation of the Dawn!
Look to this Day! For it is Life, The very Life of Life.
In its brief course lie all the Varieties And Realities of your Existence;
The Bliss of Growth,
The Glory of Action,
The Splendor of Beauty;
For Yesterday is but a Dream,
And To-morrow is only a Vision;
But To-day well lived
Makes every Yesterday a Dream of Happiness,
And every To-morrow a Vision of Hope.
Look well therefore to this Day!
Such is the Salutation of the Dawn.

You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris.

You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe.

I could hear them squeaking and squealing at feeding time early this morning . There is always a fuss when mum and dad Pidge arrive to feed their babies and it is fascinating to watch.

A few hours later, I found them huddled under the pink silk rag I'd placed in their box , but by the time I'd got my camera they'd sneaked around the back and froze , still as statues while their pic was being taken. " watch the birdie " I said .. but it didn't help.

I was on board tha Starship Enterprise , or something like it last night during my astral travels , that is.

In my dream last night I am on a spaceship, no aliens around though , it 's our lot and there's a military feel to it as this vehicle is functional and not aesthetic in any way.

There are grey tunnels and lifts and moving doors, ramps and roundabouts. I'm with a group of men , possibly scientists or military who are instructing me on how to get around in this vehicle. Moving around involves inserting red plastic chips in slots in the right order. If you get it right , you move up or down, right or straight on. Sometimes it feels scary when you end up in a corridor or floor where nothing works. What bothered me was the fast pace at which I was supposed to get the hang of things. The instructors were friendly and patient, but I felt stressed, under pressure.

At one point paper masks appear that you have to blow into to inflate them and they look like white balloons made of paper snowflakes.

No, I didn't eat cheese but I did watch the end of " Kill Bill " which was weird.
 

A plate of king Edwards, boiled , sliced sprinkled with herb salt and fried in virgin olive oil so that they are crispy and brown...especially the crumbs. Melt in the mouth goodness and yet so simple , washed down with a glass of Italian red wine .

I adore these simple pleasures and I am grateful.

X

The best argument you can make is no argument at all.

waste of energy. Simply create what you choose next.

--Neil Donald Walsch

My own take on this is that arguing with Life and " What IS " is pointless, whereas arguing with people can be cathartic and healing. It's one way of clearing the air of psychic pollution. Ventilating. Expressing. This is why we have bodies and emotions and we do not only exist in the mind. We are incarnated in form to feel and to experience in order to learn and grow in awareness and consciousness.

I do think some bi-focal vision is needed. On a transpersonal level I can see NDW's words are valid and true, but on the level of the personality , we do need to let off steam and bang our heads against a brick wall .....until we realise it is not necessary.

I keep getting distracted. Logged on an hour ago and have gone from one email , post and comment to another. The daily Einstein Quote on my Google page caught my eye :

"In the temple of science are many mansions, and various indeed are they that dwell therein and the motives that have led them thither."

I misread it though to " the temple of silence " had I read "science " I think I would have skipped it. .. that's the way my brain works

I'm getting quite good at not seeing ads too.. at least I think I am .. they are probably getting to me subconsciously.

I watched " Greys Anatomy " last night and noticed that commercials are also in the form of a trailer or mini story. That mysterious Ruby woman with the red eyes is in fact a TV or something , not a new TV series of film that is " coming to a cinema near you "

Bright and sunny today .. but still 13C